I have this compulsion that I know I have described in this forum before, I must tuck my little children in right before I go to sleep. It originated from when they were infants and I needed to make sure they were breathing so I could sleep easily, without worry. I’ve been trying to break myself of the habit. I tuck them in at their bedtime, do I really need to tuck them in at mine? Tonight I went downstairs as I was going to bed and kissed William on the face saying, “Mommy loves William.” Kiss. “I love you” Kiss, kiss. and then I held his hand for a second. He stirred and then said sleepily, “Will you hold my hand a little longer please?” I held his hand for about four more minutes when he told me that was long enough. I held it for couple of minutes more and then left to tuck in Anna. I wish I could hold that hand forever.
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